my heart is an open palm, exposed and raw
In my land of bright lights you are effervescent -
Overwhelming at once, I am oblivious the next.
You are the palpable product of words I never meant,
Of clouded judgement, infinite dreams; my sweet Regret.
My conscience weighs you down and embeds you
Somewhere in the murky depths of this sepulchral soul.
Yet there is little want of redemption for what I do,
And you and your kind maketh the stories I never told.
Even now I would sing that I am yours, Yours!
As I believe you are mine in all your tainted forms.
Sucker as I am for your taste, touch and allure,
The beauty of folly is not weeping when all else mourns.
So this is an ode to my ill-fated penchant for
Secrets I have to keep, and everything that
I loved to hold but not to possess.
That I wish to forget, but forget to regret.
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
really tired now, pe was insane. shall restrain myself from bitching a whole paragraph about how the pe teachers are not in their right minds and everything else not very nice. gosh i'm sucha blurdot, i actually mixed up van and yani on msn. sheesh.
it's almost impossible to be productive on mondays and tuesdays. did peedoubleyoo since i came back and read some notes on napoleon. period. how pathetic. yesterday was worse, i slept for two and a half hours, followed by teevee and then i completed my general solution tutorial and read the first half of napoleon readings. SIGH WHY AM I SO SLOW. really, the pace at which i do work is cringe-worthy. need.to.hurry.up.big.time.
acks i really want to go shopping and i came up with a new list, but it kinda overlaps with the other one i made last time. so far, i've only got my reuben morgan cd, that gorgeous jacket that i've been lusting over ever since kl and i don't know because to tell the truth i cant remember most of it already. shall go back a few more entries and settle on a final list. shopping my fellow bombos? :D
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